tak clear

erm,sebenarnya aku terasa bosan pada hari ini..tapi aku tak tahu tujuan dan alasannya
aku terasa bosan tetapi rindu..why she didn't call me???
and if she care about me,she'll call me ASAP..like before
but now,everything is gone..
i'm so afraid that i might losing her..
she is the best of the world..why don't she trying to stay by my side..
is it so hard for her to accept me in her life..am i so ugly and stupid??
sometimes,i feel stupid to love her..and catch her..
but igored all that assumption coz i love her so much..
i'm not a lessy,but i'm trying to appreciate her in my life..without her,i don't know my real attitude,
is it so hard for her to say the same words as i can say..i know that she was so ego..and i can't forced her..!!!
i'm tired enough of all her words...don't she thinks that i'm more suffer than her,even once??
everytime,i think about her words,i'm geetin sick and not feeling well..
she does not think about it..my antibody not strong enough and maybe i'll die soon..
did she do think about it?
i don't mnd ,if she didn't love me but please try to appreciate my love...
and not let me down..
i really hope for the miracle..i always remember Allah deeply in my heart..
and prayng for the best for her life..and open her heart to make a room for me..
and i thought i'll losing her one day..i really want her to stay at my side..
can't she??
for the rest,i hope Allah will bless her till the death
-Amin-